Lets Talk Bullies!

Bullies are by far one of the most annoying bottom feeders I've ever had to deal with. Luckily I never had to experience them in high school. But seventh grade was rough for me and finally getting away from it came with depressing side effects. I went to this school call Barnyard. (Whoops excuse me) "Barnard" in Chicago. This school was small and full of demons...errr bad children from 1st grade and up to eighth. My mom and I had a very nice house (not to brag) but we did. It was one of those cozy homes that you would feel at home in. Like your grandmas house. Remember this part because it will come up soon.

People over there were pathetic and always angry with each other. They fought each other like a bunch of monkeys fighting over one banana. And This girl named Melody was one of them.  My first day there was fine. No one bothered me and no one really even saw me. I was very shy. I stayed far away from people especially these kinds of people. Mainly because you could not really interact with them. It was more interesting to just watch them. But watching got me in trouble. In this school if you were too quiet people would get suspicious. And they did.

People would do all kinds of terrible things to me that would leave me speechless. Class mates spat on me and my stuff, Since the school was too cheap to put locks on our lockers. Girls would share lockers. I would come out very day and my stuff would be on the floor and scattered across the hallway. I was also very thin so comments about my weight and the way that I looked would sometimes be thrown at me. I felt like a kitten stuck in quicksand. It was terrible but that's not all that would happen. I'd have groups of people beat me after school and other people would get into groups and make fun of me before and during school. This random kid would sometimes throw his food at me for laughs. I had even had someone come up to me and pull out a gun on me at the playground.He wasn't going to shoot me but the fact that he did it made my heart heavy and my chest feel like it was expanding farther than it should. I was even afraid of my own home. It wasn't safe there either. Those people knew where I lived and  that was the worst part. That cozy home that I felt so safe in was now a pain cellar.


We finally moved after that year and our move was to Orland Park Illinois. It was nice suburban area that i felt was a great way to make a fresh clean start. It was great.That is until I started doing class presentations when the extreme anxiety and depression started to make its way to me. I would shake and tremble in front of people and would have nightmares about what would happen to me when I was at "Barnard". And it didn't stop there either. I kept having these nightmares at night and would tremble at the even thought of  getting up in front of people. It was depressing and I still have major anxiety now. People who know what happened to me.


This message goes for everyone:

If you ever feel like your being bullied don't be afraid to tell some one like I was. and don't wait too long to get help because that will create problems for you socially. There have been many cases where people were too afraid to tell some one they could trust and they ended up killing themselves or the bullis killed them instead. Save yourself. Please...

"I am fat" some words of advice for girls and maybe guys

Hey its Victoria. And yes I'm bitching again today.

A few days ago at school I heard some girls talking about how fat they thought they were in the lunch line. Now I know these girls, but I wont say there names in respect to them. But these girls (like all girls at school) get on my nerves.
Now I did not create this blog to bash on girls. Because I am a girl. But some topics that bother me happen to involve girls. And I feel that this topic is important. So it's time once again to be honest.

The first thing that I am going to say to all you girls out there is: GET A GRIP.
There is no such thing as being fat. People say that weight matters in this day and age. People think that if your not lighter than a pencil or thinner than a piece of paper you aren't worth talking to. I use to not believe that until one experience with a friend of mine. I went with her to a interview at the mall. She was applying at Gilly Hicks. Now for the record Gilly Hicks is absolutely awesome. Even after the experience there, the friend and I still shop there. But anyway; she went in for an interview and was criticized by an employee (BEFORE the interview) about her weight. It wasn't a direct comment. She just heard the comment being made as she walked away. And I heard it too. She then decided to just walk out. Now my friend isn't skinny.She isn't fat. She is curvy and gorgeous. And she let a comment like that stop her from achieving a goal. And that just isn't right in my book.

For starters. You can be skinny, average, or curvy. Just don't let anyone treat you like garbage. Keep your head up and treat yourself with respect. Your body is your temple and the only person that can destroy that temple is you. That is why you must practice being confident. When a girl or a guy says something that makes you feel less of yourself just brush it off no matter what they say. Because they are just people. And words should not matter. And what exactly are they gaining from it? Nothing. If you force yourself to believe that no one can bring you down. Then no one can. All they can do is talk. And talking means nothing.

The word fat is mostly used when referring to someone's weight. But in my opinion that word should not even exist in a person's vocabulary. Especially a woman's. Not to bash on us. But we do kind of make a big deal out of things.

All I'm saying is that we all need to look beyond certain things in life. We are all beautiful people. So let's look beyond our weight and other physical appearances. Because because beauty is ONLY skin deep. :)
This is Victoria. And I have been honest. I mean, I cant lie.

Guys you can take this how ever you want.

Girls: The Anatomy of female dogs

I hate mean girls. Most Girls are mean. I'm sorry but that's just how I feel. Almost Every girl in the whole entire world has been thought of as a bitch to another girl right? And I am just that other girl. To me its a competition. Survival of the hottest or survival of the cutest. Each and every single girl in the world should know that they are being judged most girls Whether it be out loud, inside, or behind their backs. Because lets be honest. How many girls are talking about their "best friend" right now? How many of you girls out there are saying to your other friend "What the hell was she wearing today?" Alot. Its normal right? Us girls are in a competition every single day. I mean, you cant walk down the street without some girl or even some gay guy staring at you. And that brings me to another topic. Jealousy.

Yes, We all know that word very well. Every girl young and old have used it. Especially when referring to another girl. Lets create a scenery. You are walking down the hall at work or at school and some girl whom you don't even know looks you up and down. You weren't even looking at her at all.You were just minding your business. You weren't even thinking of her. But as you are walking past her, looking at her from the corner of your eye and finally focusing your attention to where you were walking s that you don't slip in your 6 inch Jeffery Campbell's the trick decides to say under he breath "Bitch". Your heart thumps one hard thump that makes your arms cold and your chest hurt. Now you hadn't even said anything to this girl yet she decides that she wants to say something about you. What is that called ladies. Jealousy. the little green monster or bug or what ever the hell crawled up her ass is what is making her so jealous of you. How do you cope with this kind of behavior. Well There are a couple of non violent and non verbal ways to cope w/ girls like the one I described here.

1.) The next time she does that to you just laugh to yourself out loud. And that doesnt mean laugh like you normally do like Bobo the clown just did something stupid. Just a slight but easy enough to hear giggle. Keep walking. That ought to piss her off.

2.) Smile at her. The same as giggling except your not making any noise. That should confuse her and piss her off. Women all work the same that way. And if she smiles back at you then she is being just as fake as you are. But keep that relationship going. There have been times where the fake smiling actually turned into a friendly relationship. But if that happens keep your private life to a minimum. Because her fakecould actually be still there.

3.) And last but not Least. If she puts her dirty hand on you. Kick her little ass. And don't stop until she's down for good. No, killing her is not what i meant. When you kill a girl socially that means you have embarrassed the hell out of her. But killing her for realzz isn't acceptable at all.

I really hope that this has gotten through to some girls struggling out there. If you have any requests then just tell me and I will post about it. This is Victoria. And I have been Honest.

Pilot.

So this my first blog EVER....That's a lie. It really isn't. I have another one that I rarely use anymore. Witch I should. But anyway, My name is Victoria and welcome to TheHonestMonster. This blog is basically about me being honest about every single thing that goes on. This is like my little public hiding spot. If no one like what i say. Then that is fine. Just stop reading it. Don't complain to me. I stick to the first amendment. My other blog is Charliehorseofheart.blogspot.com. I might think going back. I might not. Who knows.